How to Burst a Bubble and Other Tales

 

 

 

 

 

This morning I woke up early and hiked to the top of Sugarloaf Head. It’s not particularly long, but it’s pretty much straight up. Once I reached the top I sat on a rock overlooking the Atlantic.

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I was alone up there — with nothing but the trees still drying from last night’s rain, and the water playing with the rocks a couple of hundred feet below.

A year ago I could never fathom that moment.

I never imagined it possible to walk up that hill without any real trouble at all, breathing in the world around me.

I lived in a bubble that consisted of fast food, TV, a computer — and little else. And my entire body was rigid with fear.

I used to take my phone to bed, just in case I needed to call an ambulance. I’d toss and turn, wondering if I should unlock the front door so that EMT’s could come collect me. These were legitimate thoughts that ran through my head. They came nightly, like bats, swooping down to carry me to the worst places imaginable.

And as I sat there this morning, staring out over the ocean — all that was running through my head was how astounding it felt to be on that hardened rock at that very moment.

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I am here.

I am present.

I am alive.

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4 thoughts on “How to Burst a Bubble and Other Tales

  1. Hello Dave,
    I just read about you on CBC. I think what you are doing is incredible. I’m a bit of a nutrition nut, and I’m wondering if you’re interested in having someone to chat about food with. I’m not a professional, just someone who loves food and loves trying to find ways to extract the most nutritive value out of my meals. You have probably had many offers of help but please add mine to the pile. My blog hasn’t been updated in years but it’s there if you’d like to peek. I’ve changed a bit over the years as I’ve learned more but fundamentally I’m still the same, in my food philosophy.

    If I don’t hear back from you I would just like to wish you luck, but most of all insight- to see your inner strength and not lose sight of it. Because it’s certainly there in spades. 🙂
    Kirsten

  2. I know that same feeling. Congrats on your weight loss. It is nor easy at all. I lost 85 lbs…went from 210 to 125 and settles at 130 and kept it off for 1.5 years now. I can so things I never dreamed before. I am even gonna try the juggernaut in October :). Congrats again, Amanda.

    1. Thanks so much for the kind words. The Juggernaut looks pretty amazing. I plan on running the Tele next year. Goals are good. Sounds pretty cheesy, but is it ever true. Good luck, mind the mud. Dave

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