“’Tis healthy to be sick sometimes.” Henry David Thereau
Seven and a half weeks
That’s the amount of time that I was impacted by an infection.
It started in a tooth, and then crept North. And before I knew it, almost two months had passed.
Two months without the gym. Without barely any exercise whatsoever, apart from the odd walk.
There was hardly enough energy to get me out of bed and to the office.
I don’t moan about much these days. But man, it was tough.
It’s only been the past week and a half or so that I’ve begun to feel normal.
I knew that I couldn’t just jump back into a gym with my current trainer. Mainly because he’d probably kill me.
So, I began to dance again with the one that brought me.
I walked to work, around work, and back home from work.
Every day — apart from Friday, because it was slippery and I hate falling.
But each day as I trotted to and fro I felt myself getting my breath back. My legs began to feel a bit more sure underneath me, and it struck me — even though I’ve been down, I’m never out. So long as I keep the path clear of clutter. Clutter that I happily provide through hours of unhealthy thought.
The entire time I was on my little “leave of absence” I was cognizant of my thinking. It’s a battle. Because inside of me there’s a huge fight going on. My brain wants to think “Jesus, you better get your ass in gear or you’ll be over 400 pounds in no time”. Or “wow, you’re going to regret ever sharing your story with people”.
These are thoughts that try and find their way to the surface.
But, here’s the thing — the body hears everything the mind is saying. So, the trick is, you’ve got to tell the mind to shut its pie hole, or focus it on healing.
After all, getting healthy isn’t just the body’s job.
Love yourself, no matter how many tissues line the side of your bed, or what colour that “stuff” is that your coughing up. You are you, and that’s pretty fuckin’ amazing.
Being sick has taught me more about health than I ever imagined possible.
As far as this blog goes: I’m back. Apologies for the unplanned outage.